dont bother to read down yeah? Its just a post of rants. BLAH.
I feel so emo after hearing somewhere over the rainbow on this youtube video hazel sent me last night. As in it reminded me of some things.Through that incident it made me feel like a female dog.I really hate those people who act like they care, get angry at me, and think they know everything but dont know how I really feel inside. Who says a person must look sad when shes sad. Who says she must cry and bawl her feelings out in front of everyone. Who says one must do certain things to show people she's really sad. Who says shes not allowed to do happy things to help forget the pain and sadness she is feeling. Who says she not sad at all. Who says she must do this and that. Who are you to control my life? You dont even know whats happening in my life, who are you to say this and that, I thank you for coming that time, but im sorry, you just made me hate you.
who says you = one person?
I feel bad enough already and I dont need another person to lecture me off, try having you lose someone close to you and then having people ranting and saying different stories to you. I HATE EVERYTHING. Im pathetic, my life's even worst.
I really really miss you, I want to hug you, I want to go back to the past when you were around, when you left, I felt that I didnt really know you and what you wanted, the only thing I knew was that you wanted my studies to be great. sighs, I hate sundays. I relate sundays = emo days.
Im quite forked up nowadays, happy as I may seem but im just really restless. And I mean seriously, I've lost everything that was to me, and its impossible to get that feeling back again. I really miss you, and I really mean it.
I'll be really happy for the next week. And lets just wait for next sunday, its ranting time.
cause Im really tired, and I dont know what im doing, im just living each day as it passes.
I NEED YOU GOD. sighs...
I HATE MY LIFE.